This blog started because I was feeling bad, and I wanted to feel good. I noticed I felt better after doing Bikram, and I wanted to eke out every little morsel of happiness and balance that I could. That’s what I did, and I was happy. Then I let myself fall back in to old habits. I fell and I fell, and after tumbling for sometime, I realized I was almost back where I started, and I needed a jump-start.

Enter the 8K challenge I am currently immersed in.

This new challenge, however, has changed me more than I thought it would. It has forced exercise in to my life in more traditional ways, and I have discovered something wonderful. I have discovered that I love to exercise. I have discovered that I love to take care of my body, and make myself feel good, and give myself time.

I never understood before this year, how people could ever want to go to the gym. I never understood how running or stationary biking or crunches could be appealing, but now I get it. I’m not just talking the talk anymore, kids.

I feel like I have unlocked some secret door into healthiness. This isn’t to say I’ve turned into some kind of gym rat. I still have my off days, but I will say that moving my body makes me happy. This is a new fact of life for me.

Healthfully yours,

-C

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There is a moment in every yoga class where I am convinced that I am not going to make it.

It usually comes right before we hit the floor. At the end of the standing series my muscles are shaking, there is sweat dripping into my eyes, my feet slip on the mat, my lungs threaten to burst, and, if I’m doing it right, I don’t even know my own name. This is the crux of the class, and I always know if I get through that few minutes, that it will all be downhill from there. If I can handle those few minutes of pain and suffering and exhaustion, I can handle anything.

Life, like yoga, come’s in series. There is a crux of each episode, and if you can get through it chances are you will have a moment to breathe. You will finish the standing series, hit the floor, and take your two-minute savasana. The problem is, life isn’t a set. You don’t know what pose is coming next, you don’t know when you will finally get to lie down. You have to just plug along, and be satisfied knowing that eventually you will make it through the crux of the situation.

I feel like I’ve hit the crux of my current situation, struggled through it, and I’m starting to wind down. I might not be in savasana yet, but I’m getting close. I am happier than I have been in a long time, although that happiness is tinged with a distinct pain sensation. Remember not to assign value to sensation, simply feel it, and allow it to wash over you. Winston Churchill said, “when you’re going through Hell, keep going.” Has anyone read Dante’s Divine Comedy? Dante kept going, he travelled through the depths of hell, into purgatory, through that, and do you know what he found? True love. So anytime you think you can’t make it, relax. You’re savasana is on its way.

-C